| Eight days before I tie the knot. "Sigurado ka na ba?" For the 2nd time, I was asked by my eldest cousin (brother) that. Honestly? I don't know. I'm scared. It's a very unfamiliar path. Like a long dark tunnel where you aren't even sure if there will be a light at the end, if ever there's such a thing as both 'light' and 'end'.
I want to run back and hide at the comfort of our home. My room, my bed, with my family. It's heartbreaking, like I'm saying goodbye. Like a part of me is dying and I can't do anything about it, but cry. And cry. And cry some more. I don't remember the last time I cried this hard. Painful sobs.
I, too, ask myself, "Am I ready for this?" Is this normal, what I'm feeling now? Are these what they call 'Wedding Jitters'?
Lord help me. And grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.
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